maandag 30 april 2012

Thoughts of today

I had such a fun day! It's queensday here in the netherlands, so my friend Paul came over on his moped and we went to the centre of the little village I live in c: (Where I bought 2 books -Bridget Jones & something with 'cross' in it- and 2 DVD's -Digimon & Peter Pan 2, I'm so mature-)
So yeah c:

And I have been tumblr'in the rest of the evening (and playing sims), and, can I just say, I LOVE the LOK (Legend of Korra) fandom ;3 Really, they crack me up everytime xD And a lot of them I can relate to, cause, just like them, I don't know what to ship anymore either! My inner shipper is so confuuuuused. I guess I'll be traveling on SS Multi-ship for a while x]

And tomorrow my oldest and one of my most dearest friends (Loes, aka Loslia) will come over for a sleep over c: I haven't seen her in such a long time! But, the thing with her is, I've known her my whole life ( minus 2 months ), and everytime we don't see eachother for a long time, but when we see eachother again, we just continue where we left, no hard feelings c: Such a lovely friendship c:
Loes - me <3

And.. Well, a lot of people are telling me to do something. And I'm seriously doubting if I should.. But I don't want to, but if this continues, and if it won't get better, I think there is no other option..
Idunno.. I'm in dubio.. People tell me I deserve much better. And I kind of agree (but I also don't), but.. Idunno.
I make my own decisions.
 But they use strong arguments..
But I don't want to.
But they're actually kinda right..
But I don't want to lose all of this that we have.
But is it treasured enough?

I'm surprised how this doesn't really bothers me that much tho.
I'm really like, meh, idc.
I wonder what influence that has on the situation.
It might cause me to care so little, it will be incredibly easy to end all of this at one point.
Meh, I don't know. We'll see.

zondag 29 april 2012

Prom picca's

Prom was so incredibly fun c:
I wish I had more pictures, I wish I had pictures of every moment, not just this tiny part of the evening.
And the day after, it's a tradition for all the seniors (who will graduate that year) to dominate and terrorize the school. So this year, it was finally our turn c: So after like 1,5 - 2 ours of sleep I went back to school and had probably one of the best days of my life (up untill now that is c:). Eventho during that day I had (yet another) argument with boyfriend, it was so much fun c:
Really, I wish I could turn back time!
Denise (bbf) - ^Paul (bff) - me c:
I love him, he's probably the best friend someone can wish for <3
Favorite picture of all time!
I love her  <3

Lonneke - Denise - Lois - me - Mandy c:

zaterdag 28 april 2012

Gonna get smokin'

Finally, finally, finally!
Me and my little sister have been wanting to get a membership at a gym for ages now, and have been nagging my mom's ears of, but finnaly I got permission to find information etc! (:
At least, I got permission to go to a gym ages ago, but she wanted to gather information and choose the gym, because she was going to be the one paying for it. Fair enough, but she never made any work of it.
But I got a little cranky with her just now, because I want to exercise again, badly!

First of all, because I can't do a lot of things because of my bad knee (understatement, much). So I can't practice most of the regular sports. But now I have had this energy ball in me, growing and growing, and more than often, I find myself having these waves of energy, and then I just have to move/exercise!
But I can't!
Like for instance today, I have been sitting still most of the day (what isn't good for any potential energywaves), and just now, I made the mistake of getting a cup of coffee (I don't react that well on caffeine, pretty prone to getting major boosts of energy, and then you'll find me bouncing around).
So now I'm overflowing with energy, but nowhere to go exercise!
Maybe I'll go punch a pillow in a minute or so x]

And second of all, because I want to get in shape. I lost a bunch of weight recently, but gained a few again. And I hate that. And I don't want to get all skinnywinny, don't get me wrong. But since I've seen the new Avatar series, I have a goal (: I'm built similar to Korra, so I will get in shape and reach a perfect body like hers.

And by the way, since the topic of Korra has been opened, HOW FREAKING AWESOME IS IT! I love it, like, so much! Korra, Bolin, Mako, omg, can't breath, what is air?!
Haha, noo, I'm not actually fangirling like that, just kidding, but I do love it so fucking much (:
Can't wait for the 5th episode! ( And finally see Makorra or Borra coming true c: I ship both, can't choose x])

(Ps. Prom was awesome (: And the day after too (: Will do a post soon, when I have the photos c: )


donderdag 26 april 2012


Tonight is promnight c:
I'm just going to stop care, about anything or anyone, and just have incredibly much fun with my best friends (:
Only, most of the girls that go were all freaking over what dress, what shoes and what make-up to wear. And don't get me started about the hair x]
I just pulled a classy dress out of my closet, put my hair up a bit with a red ribbon and put on some red cute little shoes (I was thinking about putting on immense high wedges, but I'll have to walk on them aaaaaall night.. Not going to happen x])
Well, I'm of to one of my best friends, Denise, we're going together, with a bunch of other nice girls, and meeting the rest there (:

Tonight will be a night to remember c:

maandag 23 april 2012

Feelings of warmth and happiness and love and friendship c:

Yupp, yesterday was weird weird weird x]
But, at the end of the evening, a tipical sunday evening (me tumblr'in, chatting, watching a movie in the background/listening to music and just relaxing), but I felt so.. happy.
By some reasons;
- Boyfriend pissed me of earlier that day (boys, can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em), but later that night he acted all sweet and remorseful, and he even had this surprise for me; I've been searching for the gameboy color game pokémon yellow for ages now, but I couldn't find it anywhere, half of the time I was just a little too late, they already sold it.. But now boyfriend got me one, and I was a lucky girl c:

- And again a door is reopend. One that was locked, with chains and a big padlock, is put ajar again. Eventhough it's a small crack, this might lead somewhere. The whole situation wasn't closed right. And something valuable was thrown away, that didn't need to be thrown away. I'm glad things are a bit sorted out, even if it's just a little.

- I have this best friend, a guy I can tell anything too, and who is there for me 24/7. We have been friends for quite a while now, and I don't know what I would do if I'd lose him.
I can always talk to him, about anything, of course I also nagged a bit about boyfriend (when I was still pissed of), and then he and boyfriend had a little chat (they used to be friends, but have grown apart over the years, but still talk from time to time), and he let me read it, and then he told boyfriend this;

P (best friend) says:
just keep her happy man
T (boyfriend) says:
i will mannn
P says:
you must
'cause she deserves it
T says:
she does
and i will , don't worry

They're both the sweetest thing c: I litteraly loved every word of those few sentences. Really, heart-explosion when I read that (: And everytime I read it after best friend sent me their conversation.

- Spotify is the awnser! Really, I love it! I can listen to all my old music, for free! So I have been listening to oldschool Beyoncé, Destiny's Child, Justin Timberlake, etc. So yesterday I was also listening to oldschool Britney Spears, and oh, how I loved it! Her album 'Britney' I got for my birthday once, so I used to listen it all the time. It was fun to hear it all over again (:

So, yesterday evening I just had this moment where I was literally laughing out loud, happy and feeling all warm and euphoric c:
And now I'm of, watching a few episodes of 'New Girl' and the new episode of Korra! ;D

zondag 22 april 2012

Compliments, or just a reminder of them, can make your day

Just now, I was reminded on a compliment a friend of me made once. Alright, a crush of me made once.
I was softly singing in class, and another friend of me was like;
'What is that? Does someone have the radio on?'
"No, that was me" I said.
'Na-ah, I heard the radio, I don't believe it, sing again then.'
So I sung again, and he was like flabbergasted (I love that reaction, people often don't expect me singing well xD), but then another classmate, a few seats further, heard it too, but not well enough, so she wanted me to sing it again. And then another classmate heard it not well enough, so I had to sing again. And that continued for like 4 times. And everybody was in awe, and they made one compliment after another.
Until my crush, whom I was sitting next to, suddenly raised his voice and said (after being quiet the whole time); "Stop it, just stop it."
I was thunderstruck, I didn't want to unplease him, so I shut my mouth immediately.
But, of course, my other classmates were like 'What the hell dude, let her sing.'
And he responded with, which I still think was the best 'compliment' I ever had;
"It's just that.. Idunno.. When she sings.. it goes to the marrow of my bones."
And I asked,
'In... a good or bad way?'
"A good way, definitely a good way."
And after saying that he immediately made a joke,
"And, I want to sing along, and believe me when I say I don't want to do anyone that much harm, haha"

I love it when people compliment me on my voice. Or how flabbergasted they react when I sing out loud for the first time for them.
My singing voice is the only thing of me I'm genuinly proud of.
Other parts of me are nice too, but mehh.
So when people compliment me on my voice, I just glow on the inside (:
Certainly when someone special makes one..



I cannot take myself serious ;3

A bit of annoyance and a tad of opportunity

"Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could be any different"
~ Oprah

Today was a weird day.. And it hasn't ended yet.
I was frustrated, but I'm not anymore. I mean, it's his choice, if he wants to take me for granted, I'm fine with that. I wonder what will come next. I am curious. Idiot.

And a door reopened. One that was locked, with a chains and a big padlock, is put ajar again.
Eventhough it's a small crack, this might lead somewhere.



zaterdag 21 april 2012

Love, oh, love

One of my friends just told his opinion on love, and what love should feel like, and I absolutely loved his way of describing it, so I asked him if I could use it on my blog, and I could, so here it is, love it as much as I do;

"ik kijk er echt naar uit
naar die momenten die je alleen samen kan hebben,
dat je het knus en gezellig kan hebben in een stille kamer
dat je samen een rondje kan gaan wandelen door een warm landschap terwijl je eigelijk overal over praat, en eigenlijk ook nergens over
dat op zo'n moment alle problemen wegvagen
dat alle groten dingen, maar zeker ook de kleine dingetjes er gewoon eventjes niet zijn
alleen wij tweeën
ik denk dat liefde voor mij er uit ziet als een warme zomer na een strenge winter^^
haha maar goed, is mijn gevoel denk ik maar (:"

"I'm really looking forward to it
to those moments when you can be together, alone
that you can feel nice en cozy in a room filled with silence
that you can go for a walk around the block, by a warm countryside and talk about everything and talk about nothing
that in a moment like that, all trouble just seems to fade away
and that all the big things, but also the small things, aren't there for a moment
just the two of us
I think that to me love feels like a warm summer, right after a severe winter ^^
haha, but whatever, those are my feelings, I guess (:"

I never thought he was poethical like that. He really, really is tho xD
I'm glad I have him as a friend, I can talk about practically everything with him. (:

Seriously, if someone would declare his love like that to me, I would probably melt.
And then there would just be a little puddle of roos left, haha x]
I'm such a hopeless romantic.

vrijdag 20 april 2012

Titanic was called the Ship of Dreams, and it was. It really was.

Winslet recalls that she and DiCaprio would sometimes lie on the set smoking hand-rolled cigarettes and staring up at the stars. 
Other times, she would watch him play Tomb Raider on Nintendo or they would sing to each other - the Bette Midler hit “Wind Beneath My Wings,” an indirect, on-site spoof of the Titanic scene in which Jack leads Rose to the prow of the ship and tells her to close her eyes and spread out her arms. 
When Winslet had an attack of vertigo on the back of the upended poop deck - spending a week in harnesses suspended l00 feet in the air - DiCaprio calmed her down. “I just told her we were safe,” he says. “She believed me.”
One night, very late, Winslet and DiCaprio were lying on the deck during a break. An assistant approached for food orders. “Leo was so tired,” Winslet recalls; he had his head on Winslet’s stomach and asked for a sandwich. “The assistant asked, `What do you want on it?’ and Leo said, `Oh, Kate will tell you.’ And Leo just kind of fell asleep. And I did know exactly what he wanted - this kind of cheese and no tomato and no pickle. I absolutely knew. And I thought, `God, that’s really weird that I know this person so well.’ It was brilliant.”

- Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio

I want to have that with someone. Be such good friends, love eachother so much and just know someone so incredibly well. I already have friends that know me pretty well, they sometimes even know better how I feel than I do myself, and I'm truly grateful to have them in my life.
A while ago I followed this Tumblr that is only dedicated to Titanic, the problem is, seeing all the stuff they're posting is making want to watch the movie yet once again. x]
But I don't want to! I always end up bawling my eyes out! I will not cry tonight!
Instead, I'm going to watch some episodes of Friends c:
Hmm, I might cry than anyway, with tears of laughter that is, tho xD

donderdag 19 april 2012

I wanna be forever young

Seriously, I want a forever lasting childhood.
When you're an adult, you'll have so much expectations you have to live up to.
Nothing is as carefree as being a kid.
Playing outside with the warm breeze of the warm summer winds running through your hair.
People always call me childlike, because my personality is like that.
I'm nearly always cheerfull, sunny, singing, 80% of time I have a grin on my face, and I have a hard time sitting still. And I like it that way.
I'm not in the mood to grow up, and I probably never will.
I refuse to grow up.